A day to remember of a Natural Phenomena

Today is a day that took away 280,000 innocent people lives, and there are ten of thousands still missing. this Natural Phenomena took place at a perfect time when everyone's guard is down.

Sadly, after a year, their lives have not improved,
Undermined by corruption of goodwill groups who had raised resources to help those affected.

No amount of consolation can bring the smile back onto their faces and
A deep sense of sadness evoke whenever the image of a love one appear in their mind.

Maybe one day, they will learn to smile again,
Ignorant of the world at large...

Koala Lumpur

Recently, i heard that there is a place where this particular species of animal roam further up north from Temasek. This animal is called Koala, it's very peaceful and congenial, co-exist very well with other animals. Hence, it set me wondering since animals can co-exist well with one another, why can't human do that as well. In fact, we should.

So after thinking for days, i realised the main element for the longer sustainability of mankind is peace. With peace, without war, only can we commune and improve together. I also heard that this particular animal is rather pro-active cause they launched, a few days back, an "Koala Lumpur Initiative to Criminalise War" within the animal kingdom.

Here is what they came out:


THE Koala Lumpur Global Peace Forum of concerned animals from all five continents

UNITED in the belief that peace is the essential condition for the survival and well-being of the animal race,

DETERMINED to promote peace and save succeeding generations from the scourge of war,

OUTRAGED over the frequent resort to war in the settlement of disputes between animal species,

DISTURBED that militarists kind are preparing for more wars,

TROUBLED that use of armed force increases insecurity for all,

TERRIFIED that the possession of weapons will lead to the annihilation of life on earth.

To achieve peace we now declare that:

1. Wars increasingly involve the killing of innocent and are, therefore, abhorrent and criminal.

2. Killings in war are as criminal as the killings within societies in times of peace.

3. Since killings in peace time are subject to the domestic law of crime, killings in war must likewise be subject to the international law of crimes. This should be so irrespective of whether these killings in war are authorized or permitted by domestic law.

4. All commercial, financial, industrial and scientific activities that aid and abet war should be criminalised.

5. All species leaders who initiate aggression must be subjected to the jurisdiction of the International Criminal Court.

6. All nations must strengthen the resolve to accept the purposes and principles of the Koala Lumpur Initiative and institute methods to settle international disputes by peaceful means and to renounce war.

7. Armed force shall not be used at all times.

8. All anigislators and all members of Ganiment must affirm their belief in peace and pledge to strive for peace.

9. Animal parties all over the world must include peace as one of their principal objectives.

10. Non-Ganimental Organisations committed to the promotion of peace should be set up in all nations.

11. The media must actively oppose war and the incitement to war and consciously promote the peaceful settlement of international disputes.

12. Entertainment media must cease to glorify war and violence and should instead cultivate the ethos of peace.

13. All religious leaders must condemn war and promote peace.

To these ends the Forum resolves to establish a permanent Secretariat in Koala Lumpur to –

IMPLEMENT this Initiative.

OPPOSE policies and programmes that incite war.

SEEK the cooperation of NGOs worldwide to achieve the goals of this Initiative.


Impressive isn't it! God, who says animal don't think!

Undang-undang

Yesterday, Raffles was suggesting to bring the English legal system, Common law, into Temasek through the Charters of Justice.

Papak rejected the suggestion directly, saying the english customs, practices and tradition are culturally different from ours. Besides, there isn't a need to import other's legal system, even though currently there isn't an existing one.

Then Raffles explained, With Rules and Regulation, we would be able to regulate the behaviours and practices of the society, of the citizens. The Law will create an orderly society, where each is given certain rights and place in the system. Everyone knows their place in the society, their homeland. So if any confusion arises, there are the rules to say whether it's against the rules and regulations or not.

And he continued, Besides, the English Legal system has been around for many many years, a few hundred years at least, so it is quite consistent, fair, and relevant.

Relevant!? Papak rebutted. How can it be relevant when both countries do not share the same practices? England is England, Temasek is Temasek, do you see the difference in the spelling of words?

Temasek do not have a former system of law but yet our society still co-exist harmoniously, so we dont need anything from England. Temasek is a sovereign country. We will create a Legal system when the need arises. You just go be your adminstrator of this island and think of ways to profit from our neighbours or your homeland neighbours.


In my mind, i was thinking: Only a few days back, a young man was killed. Why would papak wants to have a former system that will restricts his power? I think Raffles has some ulterior motives. Better becareful of him now.

In Memory of the Messenger

It's a sad day for the world when one has to die for the heart of love ones whereas the heartless rejoiced for the punishment meted out to saveguard his reputation.

The king of shame has just emerged.

XAT

This is the longest meeting i had with Raffles and nothing productive ever comes out from this guy. Did you know how long the meeting lasted? 5 hours!!! We were discussing how should we increase the level of dole in Temasek State Coffer as the rate its spending, no one in this world can support. Raffles just like to buy any company which he "THINKS" have the potential for long-term investment.

By the way, Temasek State Coffer resources comes from temasekians in this little island. They have to contribute for the betterment of their lives and protection from enemies, right. Nothing is free in this world. Just that we make use of this resources for our benefits, not theirs. As Raffles would always say and end with a shrill laugh. He is an asshole, i tell you.

Anyway, issue here is: How should we continue to raise money within the existing system and not antagonise them? As the rate they are paying is seriously low - claim by Raffles.

Let me explain. 1 Chicken can lay one egg approximately every 25 hours, means that every day an egg is laid, however the chicken will stop laying and instead focus on incubation of eggs, which is known as going broody. Estimated figure that a chicken will continue laying is 6 daily, while the remaining 4 will be going broody. Once the egg is laid, it will take 3 weeks to hatch, then 8 - 12 weeks for a chicken to be ready for frying or roasting, meaning to be eaten prepared in such a manner, So total number of weeks for the chicken to be ready is, let say, average, 10 weeks. 10 weeks = 2 1/2 months. 10 weeks multiply 6 eggs daily = 60 chickens that will be ready in every quarter of the year. Out of 60, 90% will be of poor quality - which need to be improve, which will be 54 eggs to be produce from one family. Local population on last count is 500,000 multi-racial, and out of that figure, 75% produces chicken, which gives us a rough figure of 375,000 producers. 375,000 multiply 54 chickens gives us 20,250,000 chickens!!! However, it doesnt mean that this number is to be transacted. Families have mouth to feed, hence, 25% of 20,250,000 will be consumed by the family and another 25% to be exchange for other items like silk, tea cups, porcelain, chess sets, marble, etc...As from the calculation, you can see the number of chickens a family requires, so we requested them to contribute the remaining 25% in every quarter of the year to the state coffer. That is not too much right, since they will be dead in a matter of time.

As you can see now, how transparent and un-corrupted of our state assets by such computations, temasekians know how much assets Temasek has. However, whatever that is written on that piece of paper is different from stock. I have reported to Papak but he just brushed the issue aside.

So much for the explanation and i hope you can follow so far. It's not too complicated, right?

8 minutes before the ending of the meeting, Farquhar came in. We told him the issue and within 8 minutes, he said," There is a type of material, called Xenon, which beautify porcelain or be use for decoration on silk. We can produce it and name this product XAT." Raffles exclaimed,"That is such a brillant idea!" and asked," what does XAT means?" Farquhar replied,"Xenon-Added Tax" Raffles said,"Good good, Farquhar, go write a plan and get it implemented quickly. I need money to buy that house in London." And i just stood there all the while, transparent. Am i governor or is he the governor...

Sentenced

Life is a gift, though meaningless, meaningless as it may be is still meaningful.

The moment we are born into this world, death await us. It's arm is always opened to embrace us, however we are terrified by this embrace. This embrace opens another door to a world unknown, mysterious, and unforeseeable.

Since life is a gift, are we cherishing this gift? or do we know it's a gift? For some do and some not, but one day they will or will not.

Guru Barr once said,"Knowing how you want to die is knowing how you want to live"

I still don't know how i want to die. I have an empire to rule, mouths to feed, lives to improve. How can i die now? It's not a choice of mine to choose the time, time chooses me.

But, Sadly, I see people being executed to death for unreasonable reasons. They deserved to die because their lives worth less than a pinch of salt. As i have said, life is a gift, it's value is immeasurable, immeasurable because gift cannot be bought. Gift is what the thought counts, hence thought cannot be bought. Thought originates through itself, thought is not to be punished.


Papak said we have to execute this messenger from Persia. I asked why. He said because he is our enemy. I replied, there are so far away and how can they be our enemy. He rebutted, they are our enemy because they spread rumors harming our reputation. I retorted, our reputation will not be harm if our conscience is clear. Angrily, he said, our reputation will be defame even though our intention is good so how can i let this defamation ruin the name of our name! I kept quiet...muttered, we will not be shameful of our name for doing the good intention, it's only the opposite that makes us wear the crown of shame. I was given a slap. I screamed, as long as an innocent person is to be kill for the wrong reason, shame will bestowed the name of those who determine, authorise,and execute the sentence!!!

"Blind, Deaf and Dumb"

My brain is....

A table, two cups, and long period of silence

This afternoon in the teahouse, i saw two chinese staring on the table for a long time, tea cups by their side. I wonder what are they doing, so asked Raffles. By the way, raffles loves tea, especially chinese tea and the teahouse. The perfect ambience to relax, muse, or stimulation of the brain.

Raffles couldn't reply and comment whimsically that they are musing or in a form of chinese relaxation. He began to follow suit.

Irritated. I walk over towards the gentlemen's table. As i walked closer, i saw some thing standing all over the table. The table is actually at a quiet corner of the 3rd level, so tough for the eyes. Once i got very near, i saw many things standing on the table. They are pieces of a chess game. A old man nearby began introducing me the game of chess.

He said, "The chess board is 8 by 8, with alternate black and white square across every rank and file. White square must be on the right side of the player. Black and white, the color for each set, with white having the advantage to start the game. The set constitutes: one king, one queen, two bishops, two horses, two rooks and eight pawn." Then he continued," The objective of the game is to capture the opponent's king"

After hearing his introduction, i got excited and wanted to try a game of it. I asked if he is interested to have a game with me and, at the same time, teach me the game of chess. He smile and gladly obliged. As soon as he agreed, i called haolian, my assistant, to go get a chess set. He was stopped as soon as the old man heard my instructions(haolian must be thanking him like mad as he has not a slightest clue where to purchase or find one). Old man said,"Go to the counter and borrow one. They provide such a service". I'm like,'wow, i didn't know that'

Haolian quickly walk to the counter, swinging his hands highly left to right and twisting his hips wildly. Old man and i laughed uncontrollably when he saw that. It was funningly strange. Well, a rule in the teahouse is no running. Hence, that act of "running".

Once we had our set, each of us a tea cup by our side, i had the priviledge to start since it was my jungfrau game and made my jungfernfahrt move. After making a few more moves, i was checkmated. I only made TEN moves! Verdammt! I can't believe it. I always think my brain is the most capable organ. Apparently, it's not. This just motivates me to work harder in this department.

Old man grins at seeing me going through the frustration and said,"Young man, you just got introduce to this game and wanted to win. Don't you think that is a bit too fast?" he continued,"Chess is a game of patience. You need to relax your body and exercise the mind. Most importantly, enjoy the process of the game. It is through the process that one learn most and a point where consciousness rules. Consciousness is the heighten/highest senses that makes a person pure."

I nodded and hrmmmmmmmm.

Silence is good

Ahhh....nice. The world stand still.

Power of nature

Yesterday walking by the beach in the evening was so peaceful. The tranquility of nature calms the mind and soul. It's been some time that i have enjoy simple joy.

Apparentlee

Goddamnit. It seems like information reaches me at its slowest pace. Whenever things happened, no one would inform me not first, not second, but till the whole world knows, then my self. Where are my feeders? Am I not in the right level? Am I invisible? Is my position as a Prince compromise by many "important" advisors, strategists, commanders?

The spread of information in this island is really inefficient and I don’t have this problem in Sumatra, which are thousand more times bigger. There must be something wrong with this island’s administration. Raffles is doing a horrible job. I just heard there was an earthquake northwest from the island. Maybe a Tsunami is coming towards this island, this moment. I must get a proper system implemented. Damnit.

A day of Love

A meeting in the afternoon with an envoy from China, admiral Nilna, in a chinese teahouse sets the mood of the day.

While we were discussing about the situation in Siam, a chinese poet nearby recited a poem which caught the ear of the envoy. He stopped our conversation and began listening to the poet. He was immersed in listening and the poet was filled with passion reciting the poem, as if his lover was in front him. The look of the of poet face was of LOVE. Here is the recital of the poem(translated),

'If a picture paints a thousand words, then why can't i paint you? The words will never show the you i've come to know.'

As he continues, The longing for her, desiring her, wanting her are expressed with such intense flame of passion and wretched melancholy that infects everyone in the vicinity. Time stops for the moment. Time stood still. All ears and eyes were on him now. Even i am, though i do not understand what he is saying but felt the words through his expressions.

'If a man could be in two places at one time, i'd be with you. Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.'

Once he ended with his last word, everyone began to ponder as if love was lost. One began to ask, " Is there love? Have i been in love? What is love?" Endless questions open up by a single word.

Then, a sweet voice rose,

'Love is like chocolate, tastes sweet and bitter.'

It was the voice of a child whose hand was filled with chocolate. Everyone nodded and burst out laughing.


Admiral Nilna decided to end our meeting and propose another day for there is no mood to discuss serious matter. I obliged for the thoughts are drifted from the land of reality.

Is love for real?

What a day

I'm 826 years old today.

Should i be happy or sad? Hrmmm...

An old raintree

I dreamt of seeing a huge old raintree, suddenly, collapsing parts by parts, branch by branch, crushing a small box with four wheels. The tree broke apart slowly, intermittently, then a chrushing blow. People were around the box and started to ran away. It was quite a mess, a huge mess in fact. Within minutes, a few bigger boxes with a huge flat plate in front of it came. They cleared the mess efficiently and promptly, in a matter of minutes. It was very fast.

And i woke up.

The Nearness of you

Shocking. Amazing. Astonishing. Impressive!!! While walking in the park, i saw two black persons singing. They sound beautifully romantic. The chemistry between them is unbelievable! They understand each other perfectly; read each other's thoughts, actions ; capable to follow what is left empty. I can't believe what i hear, even though the incomprehensible language they used.

Luckily, my england tutor was around. She told me they are singing in english. It's kinda weird initially. Two black persons singing in english?? I raised one eyebrow upon hearing that.

By the way, they aren't indian. They are african!!! I never know africans could speak english and even sing in it! AND, WHAT THE HELL ARE THEY DOING IN TEMASEK!!! Whatever it is, they really can sing. I love their voices. So i got my england tutor to write down the what they are singing, and here it is:


It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me, oh no
It's just the nearness of you

It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation, oh no
It's just the nearness of you

When you're in my arms and I feel you so close to me
All my wildest dreams come true

I need no soft lights to enchant me
If you'll only grant me the right
To hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night the nearness of you


After understanding the song, this sweet melancholy suddenly sets upon me. I felt someone close, but not around.

An Auspicious Day?

Farquhar barged into my office, exclaiming,'Your highness, Today is a lucky day!'

I lifted my head, look at him, annoyed, thinking,'what the hell is wrong with him? what lucky day is today!?'

After catching his breath, he explained the chinese believe eight is an auspicous number. Hence today, 8th August, is a lucky day.

I'm like, what the hell. If eight is a lucky number, what about the rest of the numbers?

Then, he continued explaining, because the pronouciation of eight shares the same sound as fortune in cantonese.

But, it's lucky by the cantonese. what about the rest of the dialects?

I seriously doubt today is a lucky day, cause nothing good happened to me. What if something good happened, does it mean every day of this year i will be lucky? I'm really skeptical about such a belief.

And then, farquhar continued, if you write down your wish today, your wish will be granted. He said,'One of them actually strike rich today because last year, he wish to be rich'.

So, does it mean the wish has a time difference of a year? This is only one example, how do you expect me to buy it. I'm beginning to wonder how did farquhar manage to be in this position, a governor-general! Goodness.

My wish is to have all my wishes fufill. Let's see if it will be fufill, if 8 is indeed a lucky number, an auspicious day.

There is saying,'Better believe than not'. Ha.

Never-ending job

Finally, able to put some time for blogging. Jobbing seems to be eternal; it never stops coming; piles up like a river constantly flowing, till it dries up - god knows when.

This trigger a question: When will the river dries up?

A river will cease to exist under a few circumstances:

a) Lack of refill; havn't been raining for a long time; drought,

b) Covered by landslides; filled with sediments, solids, soil,

c) A new path was created which re-directed it's flow

Let's analyse these circumstances:

a) A drought will happen under nature's control; it will decide when it shall or shall not rain. Beyond the control of earthlings.

b) Landslide is kinda predictable. When the water level rises and lower, soil soften and in due time, it will slide down into, narrowing the river.

c) This is the work of the river itself; flowing through a direction it deems suitable.

Hrmmmmm...doesn't it sound simple? Is it really that simple? Maybe. Anyway, these are my observation and analysis of a river.


PS: I hope i sound coherent, do i?

Job2do

Sucks...New term starts tomorrow. Got to start working hard again. Life is not carefree anymore, Life is changing from my routine, Life is...interesting!

Past few months had been a great time for me. I learnt so much of this island, people, and culture that my life is enriched. This island is multi-cultural on the surface and people are still racially segregated. There are still so much more areas for improvement and learning. It's going to be a long process and hopefully i will enjoy it.

Alright. It's late. Tomorrow has a meeting with Farquhar. I'm going to learn state governance from him. Nights.

Un-numb

Numb by mundanities of my life for the past few weeks is quite an amazing result. Mundanities is definitely an incorrect word, more like manipulated, manipulated by the complexities of life unpredictable twists and turns.

Being a prince does not mean i'm omnipotent. A prince is a human too. The difference between myself and others is, i am a prince of an empire. Therefore, being in such a position, my conduct should be exemplary for many to follow due to the attention i received. Being in such a position also entitled myself to many benefits. Which causes the existence of envy. Envy strives in people with small heart and narrow eyes. I suppose that is why people are different.

Yesterday, my guru asked me this questions: What would i do when i have the power?

My younger sister, Essa, immediately replied," Banish all stupid people to another planet!" I stunned for a moment, thinking," Didn't know my sister detested stupid people and is such an elitist of the mind". It certainly shocked me.

Then, my love, Eli, said," Make all her friends happy". This shocked, and impressed, me too cause she is such a naughty girl. And deep in my heart, i was very happy for her selfless-ness.

For me, after pondering for some time, i would use the power to educate people's moral. I would love to banish all immoral people to another planet but it's not realistic. Hence, education. This way, i can try to make everyone happy, but happiness is another subject.

I told my guru and he was delighted.

Here is what i thought of:

The definition of morals varied from cultures and religions. I, personally, do not believe in religion, even though im a hinduist, a little buddhist. Religion is a solace for people and a means to control and coax in a system. However, both are not exactly a religion. They are more like beliefs. Let's not digress.

In the definition of morals, the wrong acts are: 1. Lying, 2. Slander, 3. Contrive, 4. Stealing, 5. Rape, 6. Murder, 7. Rob. The provision of the wrong acts should suffice, because all good acts are an act of not committing a wrong act. These are the seven sins which i will aptly consitutionalised once i assume the empire. A quote from Rama," No one is sinless." True enough. However, repentance must be shown and practice. I believe, a stupid person is not worse than an immoral one. The latter will receive a bad karma for all sins committed. Believe it or not, karma has its unfathomable power. The judge is Karma. This is the best form of punishment.

With this definition of morals, i believe, my people will treat one another properly. Relationships in the community will improve creating a congenial social environment for all to interact and live in. The characteristics of a human will progress rather than trap in the endless cycle of war. The human will live a healthier life. Death is an end awaiting through a meaningful journey.


Hahaha. Can't believe what i have thought of. It would be really nice when i constitutionalised and look at the result. I must write it down and let papak know. I wonder what his reacion is. Hrmmmm...

Numb

(((******)))

Good Grief

Today, a bad news was spread among my entire family. My Uncle Punya has passed away. He is the eldest son of our family line but due to some differences with my Grandfather, the throne was passed to my father instead. When you can't make the old man happy, he make your life miserable. Asshole right? Oh well, whatever. That is how it works in a patriarchal system: the man rules.

Anyway, good for me, bad for the women. But come to think of it, women plays an important role in the system too. They provide and ensure the family is well run while the man work to feed the family. Oh, what am i talking about here? My father don't work for the family. He is the laziest bastard and just wait for money to fall from the sky. He must have pray real hard during his previous life to be born in a royal family, and now he had the throne - which he don't deserve at all. I'm digressing.

Today is a day for grieving but, ironically, my relatives aren't really sad. It seems like his death has been a good death. Haha. My grand uncle Cigga told me of how my uncle Punya was when he was alive, what he did for my grandfather, his own family and as a person himself.

As a person, he don't create any trouble for people. He works in a dilligent and abiding manner. No problem in work, not all the time, but, definitely, occasionally, and who doesn't? He don't gamble, consume alcohol and indulge in libertines.

As a son, he would help out my grandfather with the adminstrative of the empire; negotiate with states regarding matters of territories, of sovereignty, of tributes to us; basically, whatever shit work my grandfather unable to finish or simply throw at him. And these are not his main job. He was managing several farms and fishing villages. A busy busy man, indeed.

As a father, he always try to find time to spend quality time with them, understand them, guide them, advice them. He rarely used the cane or force. He believes in reasoning as it is much better than imposing values onto them. They are life itself and have their own mind and will. Besides the daughters, of course, the rest of the time are spent with his wife, in bed, in meals, in problems; they go thru thick and thin. Nice right?

Ok. I know he sounds like a perfect man. But he really is. Maybe not totally perfect but close. He did his duties well. It sounds easy but it is not. Do you think they are so many selfless people in this world? Fact tells us that they are very few. I know by writing or talking aren't substantial enough, but the manner and circumstances he left this mortal world explains it all. He died in his sleep. His children are all married, and he is a grandfather himself! Plus he gave them no troubles at all! What more can his children ask for? He left the world peacefully. I, Utama, can assure that because i saw a smile on his face in the coffin.

Uncle Punya, altough we seldom see each other, i know you are a great man, because grand uncle Cigga said so and i believe everything he said. Living is definitely no easy feat and you lived your life well. I respect you for what you are and did. I hope i can be like you too.

P/S: I feel like a small boy, again.

A Nose that runs

Today, i spent my whole day chasing after the nose. It's really a pest. An agile, fast, dodgy one that is. Bloody irritating like hell, where it blows hot and cold. It's been a tiring chasing game. I don't seem to be able to catch it. Every few hours, i feel weak and fall into a slumber state. I suspect it sedated me with it's odourless, colourless fragrance in the form of a flower, or just pure air (Identifying has been an onerous process, so...). This is the power of this nose, which power-less its opponent.

Is it good or what, or i suck? Who is the master here? The one who chases or one being chase? Sniffs.

The Beauty of Sleep

Sleep, a state where the body is at rest, horizontally, and mind is unconsciously at work - dreaming. Sleep is the time to rest after a day's activities. Sleep is position where you loosen your guard against the environment; being in a vunerable position. Sleep is what you need most when you lack of it. Sleep is simply beautiful, the moment where one is free from the complexities of the real world and be at peace with oneself; reflection for the human soul. Sleep is what i need now!!!

I can feel the effect of the green honey. It's really effective. Effects of antidote for sleeping disorder. Effecting myself to sleep now..zzzZZZ

IN-SO-MIA

Bloody hell...I can't believe i have slept only eight hours for the past two days. Eight hours in two days! My brain is suppose to be taking a break, not working so hard. There are no exam or work at this moment, so why should it be working in such a manner??? I seriously need an answer. And, my excerise regime should tire me out but it's not. WHY? WHY NOT? Is this a sign of death? Or what?

I need to sleep...

Love After Love

The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

And say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was yourself.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.


Derek Walcott

A beautiful duel

The star illuminates the pole, and the moon colors the night. But my guide is a sole star and if, when the shadows have been dispelled, my star rises from the the East, my mind will ignore the shadows of sorrow. You are my radiant star, who will dispel the night, and light itself without you is night, whereas with you night is splendid radiance.
If you feel hunger, only you sate me; if i feel thirst, only you quench it. But what am i saying? You refresh, but do not satiate. Never have i been sated with you, nor shall i ever be...
So great is your sweetness, so wondrous your constancy, so ineffable the tone of your voice, such the beauty and the grace that crown you, that it would be a great offence to attempt to express them in words. May the fire that consumes us grow always, and with new fuel, and the more it remains hidden, the more it will flare up and deceive the envious and the treacherous, so that the question will ever remain: which of us two loves the more, and so between us there will always be joined a beautiful duel in which both are victorious...

Baudolino

Freedom

Sings," FreedommmM, freedommmmm..." I just love this word. I love the meaning of it, not that i am not free. I am but free in a sort of way, but trapped in another sort of way. Life is a contradiction, isn't it? HA.

Anyway, i am free from exams. Took my last paper today which releases me from having mental memorisation, calculation, computation, etc...i can sleep peacefully tonight, but not for long. I can hear more work coming.

Ever since i came back, which was seventeen days ago, i never really had the chance to write about my wonderfully coloured trip filled with adventure of sorts. The moment i stepped into this island, people have been bugging me for this, stressing me of that, which gave me undue pressures, of questions that i am also asking. However, i just didn't have the time to explain, because i am seeking for an answer too! Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you going to get. I like the uncertainties of life, make it so much more exciting and interesting.

Ok. The trip. Let's talk about the trip i had, which i can now reflect and savour those beautiful and joyous moments in paradise. Life is heaven and i know how heaven looks like. It's truly beautiful, and i shall share with everyone.

Heaven, is a place where one is free from stress but filled with fun, peace, joy, and laughter. A place where you are in a world of your own, with friends you love and to play with. You are at peace with your own self, like there are no obstacles you cannot overcome. Omnipotent. You learn new things everyday. The sky is beautiful for rain or shine. The sea is clear in day or night. Stars smiling all night long. This is life.

However, sad to say, it does not end there. Time moves on. Life too. But, at least, in my life, i have experience heaven, not once but more than once and less than ten or lesser(I don't keep track of my visits to heaven). This kind of experience can't be bought, it's just happen. No one will know when it happen, only after.

Without hell, there would be no heaven. Is it contradicting or not?

Recession

Time to relax, even though i felt it's not needed. Anyway, good for reflection of my highs before the lows come.

Taking my own sweet time

Ahhh..it's so nice to be able to do things at my own pace. It's makes work so much more enjoyable and productive. What is the point to achieve quantity compromising quality?

The corporations seem to work in such a manner. They believe high production of products increase profits, provided that there is a high demand. Without demand, you can produce anything you want and it will still be not sellable. However, if you focus on quality, the chances of being consume is higher. Quality meaning: real effort taken to produce with a flexible time constraint, employee positive working attitude, no lack of resources for production, and a congenial working, social environment.

I know it's not possible to fufil all the requirements but it's not impossible. This is where the part of management comes to play. It have to be the strategy and vision of the management and implemented fairly and democraticly through two way communication between higher and lower level of the corporation. I believe it would sustain the profitablity in a longer term, just like the delicious Nasi lemak hawker outside Istana which had taken the limelight from my magnificent mansion and this reminds me to get rid of that bloody hawker!!! Idiot.

Braindead

My brain is dead. Corporate management has taken its toll on my poor little brain. The way management funtions and operates varies in differing heights, it all boils down to objectives and agenda of the board. Aren't our goal is to make profits? Yes. However, there are external factors to be taken into account too, like environment, society condition, political stability, etc.

Like i said, my brain is dead. I can't really think. How nice would it be if i make consumers brain dead but enough for them to consume. I just need a good marketing campaign.

Corporate management

It's been a week since i last blog due to the large amount of materials i have to read and understand.

As you know, my papak wanted me to study corporate management. He says the management is the most important function besides finance. If you can't manage your management well, costs will go up and efforts and money will be wasted. And also, the need to control our colleages making sure they aren't going to oust us(management) from our job. In another words, dictate them using a beauracratic system which we can make sure everything runs smoothly, accordingly and orderly. We are the rulers of the empire and have to continue our dynasty.

It sounds all so exciting as i can feel the power slowly transfering to me. Power. An amazing ability to influence people who, unwittingly, give their power to the influencer. The best thing is how a person can receive huge "supports" from many. It makes you wonder whether the people understood why they have given the support to that person. It's so simple yet complex at the same time.

My papak is making sure that i will be the one receiving the supports in no time. He wants me to be a great ruler. One who will set a good example for the world to learn and follow.

Damn. I feel my vocabs are limited. Need to learn more words from today.

@#@^%@#$@^#%

Damn. My papak wants me to study corporate management and the course is starting tomorrow!!! Of all days, it starts tomorrow. Why can't it be later? WHY? I was planning a visit to the mama shop tomorrow morning, when everyone is still in their morning blues. This is so frustrating. And now, i don't know when can i visit the mama shop. @#@$^&%#@^%

Visit to mama shop

Today, which i meant yesterday due to that 54 minutes past midnight, I went to the mama shop. When i first heard of it, i was thinking what the hell does the shop sells? A shop that sells mama or mama selling shops or mama shops? So in order to answer my question, i have to visit the shop to find the answer. And there i go, stealthly, sneak to the shop without the knowledge of my bodyguards. And by the way, they are pests, you know. I don't need bodyguards. I am not a criminal or in a dangerous position as i don't have enemies! My papak is paraniod. He just worry way too much. I wish he learns how to take things easy and trust his beloved Utama. I am an adult already. Not a small boy, you know.

Anyway, once out from the pests, i took out my shitty map of Singapura and try to locate the districts of....erm....i don't know which district a mama shop opens in!? sigh. So, i suppose, i have to start from zero. Not a single clue of mama shop.

I look at the morning sun and decided to head west. There i go, i walk and walk. It was a very pleasant walk through the orchid farms. In fact, it's beautiful. The greenery, flowers blossoming, huge trees. I like it.

Then, suddenly, I saw from a far a shop name 'MAMA SHOP'. "Yes!" i exclaimed, "i finally found one. Luck is on my side today". I quicken my footsteps, twisting my hips sideways vigorously to enhance the movements. Within five minutes, i covered the distance of a mile, the distance from my discovery to the shop. That's fast right? I reckon so. I might be a prince but that doesn't mean im a pampered one.

Out of nowhere, My bodyguards appear and surrounded me. My adviser squeezed his fat ass through them and advices me that my papa would not be please for my behaviour and would lead to serious consequences for everyone.

Damn...I thought today i would be able to enjoy the day by myself. And now, their lifes are under my actions, I oblige and followed them back to Istana. This is so so so so so so so so irritating. I was right in front of the shop and i couldn't even step inside to see what it's like. I feel like killing somebody now!!!

Rooms for improvement

A friend of mine said my blog lack the depth, which i kinda agree. My command of english is not to a level of mastery, and still learning to understand this bastard language. By the way, English language is not a pure language. It is formed through other languages like germanic, french or anglo-saxon - along that line. It is, itself, abstract and words can be interpreted differently, if you didn't get the crux of the sentences. I even heard dyslexic have problem understanding the language. But i must admit that my knowledge is not wide enough to substantiate this claim. However, My friends supported it as they, themselves, agreed. One of them is a english major.

I am Utama, the Prince from Majapahit Empire. I speak javanese. Sadly, javanese is not a language to be written in this virtual world.

Just like my palace, big and roomy, there are definitely place for improvement. Learning never stops.

April fool!!!

Happy April's fool day!!! Hahaha.

Blog is quite amazing. It has this function where i can change the time & date even when today is not first of April. I feel so powerful. I can change time or date whenever i want. How nice. I really wish i can do that in real life so mistakes are correctable. Things would be perfect, in my dreams i suppose. Haha. Bloody dreamer...

Today, was the day i landed on Singapura. Similary, as always, I was greeted by a grand reception of Chinese lion dance accompanied by Malay dikibarat and welcome in a customary Indian manner served with Peranakan's delicacies. It was such an eclectic cultural combination that one could not be more please with the creativity of singapureans. Actually, i like to call them Temasekians. Sounds better, isn't it? Singapura inhabited by Temasekians. Nice, i like.

As usual, after the welcoming by the hospitable Temasekians, i headed down to the Istana. It's right in the middle of Orchard road. It's a boring place. The whole stretch is mostly filled by orchid farms. I don't want to see orchid. I want to see the liveliness of the island, the main activities beside work. So i asked Farquhar, sounds like ah-qua, where are the fun places. He told me none. He said singapura is a place to work and live, not to play. I was shocked by his mercenary attitude. I simply don't understand why papak let him manage this island. Look at what he have turn it into, an island with no life. So i suppose the creativity of Temasekians are fake, the eclectic mix must have been stolen from someone. I need to inform papak of the situation.

The Majapahit emprire is not only a conqueror, it has humanity at heart. The lives of the civilians are the main focus as we have responsibilities towards them. They are the primary group that form this empire. Without them, there will be no empire. Peace and strength to protect and provide are what makes the Majapahit empire lasting. Claimer: This paragraph is solely base on my thoughts and no relation with the empire itself.

Okay. Time for dreaming. Need to digest the informations i'm receiving.

Good afternoon.

Apprenticeship

Hooray! I am travelling to Temasek to assume to learn corporate governance, the latest term for governing a state. My papa has decided it's time for me to learn to be a king, earlier than i have thought. However, i'm a little apprehensive as i'm still young. Still an inexperience young man.

Tomorrow morning, i will depart from my lovely palace to the place where i've found. I don't understand why credits are given to Stamford Raffles. He is not the first person who step onto the island, i am. Actually, there are people already living on the island when i was there. I would rather that i have the credit than him cause HE EXPLOITED OUR RESOURCES!!! I visited the island and left the place empty only with a name. Why people can't differentiate between good and bad people. Is it that anyone who bring food to your mouth are good people? Why can't we depend on ourselves and keep our integrity? I say, people are just too lazy. They don't bother to use their most precious asset: The Brain.

Okay. Shouldn't grumble now as i havn't pack my stuffs yet, don't know what to bring. Maybe i should keep it minimum.

Oblivion

My oh my. I am so busy that it's hard to keep abreast with news in my empire. I don't have time to read even though news are within my finger tips. I suppose this is also a good sign, a sign of work, of tasking, of learning. And, im enjoying it.

With such an attitude, i wonder whether the empire would be in good hands once it's handed over to me. Maybe in years to come, i should be under tutorship from my father, or the Monarchy, which i don't see much of the relevance except for the transferal of power. Oh well, we shall see.

It's late. I should get some rest. Tomorrow is a long day.

Confused blogger

My oh my. I'm so irrtated of unable to view my latest post in the blog. I simply don't understand what is wrong here. Am i too stupid or it is too complicated for me. Goon-ness.

I think the functions in blog should come with a explanation, expecially those incomprehensible and lowly utilize ones. Otherwise, what is the point of having many functions or function difficult to use.

Hope the administrator is reading this blog. Please take note. Thanks.

Absentism

After close to a month of absence from blogger, it feels good to be back. Good that my body is working well, especially the brain. Brain is such an integral part of the human body. The importance is of such magnitude that even the universe is not it's worthy opponent.

I, Utama, the saviour of the our mother earth, is the ultimate, the absolute, of the human lace.

Wonder how Banda aceh is now...It should be rebuild pretty soon since so much money are following in from so many countries. Such caring and sharing neighbours we have here.

Art performance of myself, how strange...

Good morning, afternoon and evening to all,

While surfing in googles, i was flattered to found that there is a art performance in London, of Utama, myself, on 2nd march 2005. However, it refers myself as a ghost, remnant, fossil! What the hell. Why do people like to curse me? Mystifying myself is already bad enough, and now this.....

I am beginning to get irritated with people nowadays. They like to make assumptions base on one source, which can be anything from the main to the obscure, without comparing it with any other sources to make a fair judgement. Why why why. Why can't they work their little brains a little. Is thinking such a onerous activity? Is sourcing for various sources tough? Is comparing a work of wonder? I just don't understand why they can't open their eyes bigger, instead of using that lousy telescope with defracted lens given. I wonder if they realise that it's actually spoilt?

Goodness.

Badness.
Someone is out there making a claim that there are many Utamas. How can there be many Utamas when I am the original one who founded Singapura. Don't people have their own names, identity? What is wrong with people, HUH?

Damn irritating...

Who am I?

Hello everyone, I am Utama, the javanese prince. After so many years, informations, messages have been poorly pass down, interpretated, understood, due to the lack of accuracy and skepticism by singapurans, temasekians. I do not blame them for it as it is human nature to err. However, to err doesn't mean is right. It means extra efforts are needed, or even a discussion among academics, fishermen, ma, nenek, cik could provide that extra piece of knowledge, for rectification. I am disappointed by the lack of such effort.

Therefore, I, Utama, shall settle it for once. I am an javanese Prince from sumatra of Sri Vijaya Empire born in 22nd December 608. I like to explore, hunt and travel. I have to ascend the throne of my kingdom once my papa time is up. I believe in the supernatural, black and white magic, but not in god. Oh yes, i like to climb those rocks. It gives me thrill and excitement whenever i'm up against gravity. I hate politics.

My kindgom geographical landscape is such of disaster prone, like earthquake, volcano eruption, tsunami and POVERTY. I know my papa is not doing a good job and i hope i will.

The first thing i saw when i landed in Temasek was THAT creature with black head, red tawny body and white breast. I BELIEVE my advisor. He said it was Lion so it is, and beautiful indeed. Anyway, i have verified that it was because Lion used to roam in SE asia, and still do. It was my luck that i saw one which no one ever did after, or even if they do, do you think they give a damn?

Damn. I'm so distracted now. Think the introduction is more or less completed. If you are not sure, feel free to ask me. Utama is still alive.